Monday, April 30, 2012

Who Closed the Door?

Along my journey many doors have closed, in fact some doors without warning, have closed so quickly and closely (even in mid step) they indeed injured my nose (which, in hindsight I might say, should not have been in the direct path). No matter the circumstance, I have faced closed doors; the feeling of loss and regret over that final click; the struggle to pull myself away and look to the door that has opened a tiny crack just around the corner.
Thick gray fog now surrounds my memory of a series of closed doors in my life, the first of which is the door to the end of my long time marriage to someone I originally thought would be my life-time partner, followed by the doors that ended a few trials at new relationships. As each door slammed shut, I looked long and hard at the 'whys and wherefores' surrounding what, at the time I labeled failures; seeming unable to live through the experiences as a pathway to my present very happy circumstance and wonderful partner. I could have saved myself much grief and heartache had I concentrated less on the closed doors and looked forward to the runway leading to the wide open doorway of the great grand ballroom of happiness and discovery. I recall beating myself up trying to determine what I had done so terribly wrong to cause such unhappy circumstance. I examined every turn, relived every silly mistake and generally spent long hours concentrating on the closed doors in the thinking mode of 'what if'. It was indeed a learning experience; much better to have known that along the way though, than to learn it afterwards and thats for sure!
I have often looked long and regretfully upon closed doors; I seem negligent in reminding myself that there is, or soon will be another door open for me. How about you.........any closed doors you need to move or turn from? The quicker you do the sooner you will enjoy what is waiting for you as the next door opens.
Remember the words of Alexander Graham Bell:
"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us."

(WWU Writing Prompt - October 16, 2010)

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